wish

if i should die, when i die,
i hope it is convenient to all.

don't want anybody's weekend plans interrupted,
or weekday work temporarily suspended,
don't wish to be the cause of a lost casual leave.

don't want anyone to be stuck in traffic jams,
cursing the hour, or delayed needlessly,
when better things could be done instead.

i do not wish to cause anyone agony,
about when and how or if to pull the plug,
the paperwork stuck because it's lunch hour.

i do not wish to see boredom in their eyes,
the waiting for the breath to fade away,
waiting to leave, fidgeting because they cannot.

i do not wish to let anyone suffer,
the tedium of writing an obituary,
the anguish of choosing the words.

i just wish to crumble to dust, fade, disappear
without a blip in time or memory. and soon.

too sweet

how did i become diabetic?
it was as easy.
just as day turns into night
a girl turned into love
love into bride
bride into mother
mother into pain.
that's when (my fault again)
you started taking painkillers
who wore miniskirts
and adored you
and cajoled you
and turned you into
sugar daddy.